no sleep high. celebtrity gossip. Angelina Jolie kissing her brother. "Do
you think that they were maybe doing drugs? Could that explain some of
their behavious?" says one lady to another.
"All done Captain?" says the waitress to the man dressed as a sailor.
skateboarding uphill against the wind in the hot afternoon sun with a bag
of tutelary clothes for my job on wednesday. there are more tigers in
people's back yards than there are in the wild. silky hens, colourful
rooster. "walls can become bridges or ladders of fire". it's never too
late in the early morning warning signs über loud cell phones, quiet purr
of the train skating down the tracks. rat gets the cat no wifi no cell
phone. she's all persona an effigy a wannabe she's got a well hidden soul.
i'ts not gonna happen all at once. trusting my intuition. aware of my lack
of awareness, social skills are on the way. love. love. self-love,
self-honour. satiate the beast. next stop: centaur. crocodiles, kangaroos,
spiders and dingoes, banskias and dancing snakes. stop interrupting.
relax. be real. who are you talking to brain? get out of my mind. I hate
small talk.
Jack n the Box 2 bottles of boot sky vodka Venice Beach loud fans fanny
pack hunt weird town i meet him in a dark motel room like a batcave,
sitting on the bed playing violin along to music coming from a small
amplifier fed by his laptop. we're lying on the bed talking when he opens
the door and enters like we're old frineds standing with his fingers
suspended in mid air spread open like he's clutching a cigarette with his
broken tooth mouth open and his hungry delerious eyes, pock-marked skin
and sin and and we don't mind but we don't have a cigarette for him and
it's hot inside so it's nice to have the door open, he talking fast and
slurred and his poor wiry body is twisted like an old bird.
later when we leave we go out to a restaurant and eat deep fried pickles
and too many cupcakes and the waitress thinks that we stole one of the
condiments so she kicks us out and i'm so angry and ranting outside in the
street. Rose Avenue. We spend 3 hours in the supermarket and he has too
many bangs and too many oranges to carry. then we lie in the bed eating
more cupcakes. care bear stares and used wares, and no underwear Jem,
Jericha, Kimber, Riot, Nirvana, smores, more cupcakes, so many cupcakes!
he smells like oranges and earth deleriously blue eyes, cat eyes wide,
nothing fazes him, screaming i love you to his laptop they take him to the
hospital. flaxen locks, alabamba twang and surfer slang, slacker, hacker,
hot icy wolf eyes, he tracks my entire body breathes out hard when he
laughs and throws my legs up over his head